Dec 29, 2012

A poet's love story.


"Every man loves two women; the one is the creation of his imagination, and the other is not yet born." 
 - Khalil Gibran

       She was the first to spot the sensibility in the lines I scribbled. Her appreciation was my finest inspiration. We bonded over poetry. I paid more attention to the lines I scribbled, because I knew she pondered over those lines. 
         The poet in me was gradually finding his voice. The choice of the apt word for the apt emotion was a challenge I loved to surmount. What is interpreted by the learned, in those lines of mine as a passion for poetry, I now wonder if it is actually a lust - a lust for appreciation by the girl, who was to me in those days the whole world. 
       I still wonder if that which blossomed between us could be called 'love', because every time I introspect I feel I have never understood what love is! But one of these days is not one of those days, when I composed what is now supposedly praised as lyrically beautiful, passionate flow of emotions on love and its various forms. The world reads and relishes those lines, but I doubt, if they are the result of excitement born from immature infatuation. Or, am I blinded by what I assume to believe?
       As we came closer, I made sincere attempts to compose poetry which impressed her. Always engrossed in the world of dreams, a poet inhabits, I forgot the reality about myself and the world around me. My imagination and creativity, I felt then, were at their peak. Every word, every phrase, every emotion that the poetry captured, all my attention were in the realms of imagination and beauty. So much, so that I felt I was obsessed in my attempts to impress her.
        But, as she walked away from me, she complained I was obsessed with poetry and paid her no attention!

Dec 21, 2012

Intelligent?

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"We consider ourselves intelligent only because we are ignorant enough to overlook our foolishness."

Dec 19, 2012

Superior or inferior!?


Why is it that
         you are superior
         and I inferior?

Because you were
         born a man
         and I a woman?

Because while in anger
         you scoff, scold & beat
         and I bear it all neat?

Because while in pain
         you shout & scream
         and I cry in silence?

Because while in need
         you ask
         and I give?

The wise supposedly say
         Angrily argue the weak
         In patience, strike the tolerant!

You still think
         you are superior
         and I inferior?

Dec 18, 2012

Waging the war.


"There is magic in fighting battles beyond endurance." 
- Eddie Scrap-Iron Dupris 
("Million Dollar Baby")
      As we live our daily lives, we keep waging battles. So many battles all around us, sometimes we ourselves tend to loose count of them! Those battles too evolve every moment. They are so dynamic that by the time we plan our next move, the battle scenario itself gets altered! The result of these battles are, in most cases, not easy to decipher though they are fought in and around us.
       All of us, every moment of our existence, battle for one thing or the other. Most of the times, for more than one thing. Battling with ideas, battling with thoughts, battling at job, battling in relationships, battling for social or emotional justice, battling for a peace meal, battling for solitude, battling against loneliness! Ah, what miracle are we humans - for we battle on so many turfs, all at once!
      What is extremely amazing is not that we battle so much, but that the human spirit can put up extraordinary fights one after another; that unbelievable belief which emerges only in moments of crisis; that unwavering composure that mocks at defeat in its own defeat! What is it that fuels a human soul with such legendary character?
      While in the battlefield, we all would love to win. Battling against all odds, not that the heroic warrior always wins, he does loose at times. But in a few of those lost battles are his most cherished victories! He moves on from one battle to another, unperturbed by their outcomes because all that the warrior hopes is to wage the war... undefeated! What if the battles are lost? He knows the war is not over, it shall never be over. He shall always stay undefeated in the war because he wages the war till death parts him from the war field and no warrior who dies fighting is defeated!
"For most of us, this is the aim 
Never here to be realised; 
Who are only undefeated 
Because we have gone on trying." 
- T.S.Eliot ( 'Four Quartets' )
       What makes the war legendary is that at times, only the warrior knows he is engaged in a war. Not always and not to everyone around can the warrior communicate the war he is waging. After all, legendary wars are fought in the soul and true heroes manifest only within the soul. Khalil Gibran pointed it best when he wrote - "Your soul is oftentimes a battlefield, upon which your reason and your judgement wage war against your passion and your appetite." Unwavering, the warrior wages his war in his soul, with an indifference to either the criticism or the applause that he is bestowed with. He knows Longfellow wrote the truth in his lines -
"Not in the clamour of the crowded street,
Not in the shouts and plaudits of the throng,
But, in ourselves, are triumph and defeat."
       A compromise, a loss, a wound, a betray, an unforeseen disaster are all parts and parcels along the journey of battles. However fine a strategist we are, we simply can't escape the raw realities and unpredictabilities of the battlefield. In the face of uncertainty, the warrior is certain of his faith in himself. Not that he is blessed with a monkish one-pointedness of concentration, but despite many moments of wavering thoughts and emotional crisis, he believes he can handle the situation and strives all out to handle it. The belief translates into action, as described in the epics - because to a true warrior there is no epic bigger than the war he wages.
    For a warrior, optimism is never a luxury, but a primary necessity. His optimism is his belief in his abilities. He does strategise for most of the potential negative happenings and consequences, but not for a moment does he give up his faith in life. The warrior knows that things might turn much grim than predicted, he might be left absolutely helpless; but never hopeless - his hope is in the transiency of life. He remembers his lesson from the wise Zen master that 'this too shall pass'; he shall wait with patience because that is his strongest move!
       The warrior fights all through the war, not because victory is his sole motive, but because the warrior is born to fight. His fight is not against mortal enemies, but against his own fears, which he wishes to conquer. His purpose is not to reign supreme, but to reveal to himself his own true spirit. And to each one of us, discovering the warrior within us and letting him move from one battle to another on a journey of exploring the war he is destined to wage is probably why life is bestowed on us!

Dec 4, 2012

ನಾ ಮರೆತ ನಿನ್ನ ಬಿಂಬ.


ನನ್ನ ಮನದ ತುಂಬಾ
ನಾ ಮರೆತ ನಿನ್ನ ಬಿಂಬ.

ಮೆದುಳ ತೊರೆದರೇನ್?
ಮನದೊಳಿಹೆಯೇನ್?

ಮರೆತರೂ ನಾ ನಿನ್ನ
ಮರೆವೆನೆ ನಾ ನನ್ನ,
ನನ್ನೂಳಗಿಹ ಆ ನಿನ್ನ?

ನನ್ನ ಮನದ ತುಂಬಾ
ನಾ ಮರೆತ ನಿನ್ನ ಬಿಂಬ.

Nov 29, 2012

Knowledge; Half-knowledge!


"Knowledge widens our horizon!" exclaimed the angel.
"But, Knowledge limits our perspective," contradicted the devil.
"How come? The knowledge and awareness of a thing helps us understand it better, dispels myths and informs us with facts."
"On the contrary, knowledge and awareness of a thing limits our perspective, ties us with preconceived notion and tempts us to jump to conclusions."
"Look, let us assume you have good knowledge of music. Then you will be better equipped to understand its intricacies and appreciate its subtleties."
"Keeping up with the same assumption, you will be eager to classify every form of music into the categories your knowledge dictates; you will most likely miss out the music in the whisper of winds, the cry of children and the rustle of leaves, because the standardised knowledge of music denies you the freedom to categorise these melodies!"
"You complain of ignorance with the growth of knowledge?"
"No, I complain the loss of innocence and the limit to viewpoints."
"Why do you think it is so?"
"Because most of the knowledge we boast of, is half knowledge."
"And half knowledge is dangerous."

Nov 27, 2012

Frogs of the well!


"You are a scar on the new generation of frogs," the ocean frog scolded the frog of the well.
"Why do you think so?" asked the frog of the well.
"From generations, we are condemned as 'frogs of the well', and you still live in the well allowing for the condemnation of our species."
"So, what do you suggest?"
"Jump out of the well and fall into the ocean, then none will condemn us as frogs of the well."
"So, you fell into the ocean to escape the condemnation?"
"Yes, everyone of us jumped out of the well and now have made the ocean our home! We run onto the shore when there is a wave and move in when the wave calms down. Everyone amongst us is respected because we are no more frogs of the well, but frogs of the ocean."
"Oh, that means you are still bound to the shore?"
"So what? It is the shore of the ocean and we are called ocean frogs, mind you."
"Ever explored how deep is the well you previously lived in?"
"No, why should we?"
"Ever explored how far is the ocean you presently live in?"
"No, why should we?"
"Yeah, why should you? We all are still frogs of the well. Maybe the well which I reside in is small enough for you to look at its boundaries, but your vision not far enough to recognise the boundaries of your own well!"

Nov 22, 2012

Sensitive or insensitive!?


"I think sensitivity is essential," said the angel.
"But, I think insensitivity is essential," retorted the devil.
"Look, sensitivity has its advantages."
"So does insensitivity too."
"Being sensitive to the feelings of others when you speak helps better your relationship with others."
"Being insensitive to the ill feelings which exist in what is talked about you helps strengthen your existence in the world."
"The more sensitive you are when you transmit your ideas, thoughts and feelings, the more friendly, understanding and sensible you end up being."
"The more insensitive you are when you receive undue criticism, pessimistic prophecies and disgusting discouragement, the more healthy, optimistic and forgiving you end up being."
"But, I am a sensitive being. How can I turn insensitive?"
"Like how an insensitive being like me turns sensitive!"

Nov 1, 2012

Tribute to 'the' teacher.

       
         "The teacher who is indeed wise does not bid you to enter the house of his wisdom but rather leads you to the threshold of your mind." - Khalil Gibran

          A friend of mine called up to inform that 'the' teacher had expired. I was half asleep while on a journey when he called and the fact took a few moments to sink in. A picture of 'the' teacher went through my mind - He read a passage in his inimitable style, removed his spectacles with his characteristic grace, looked at the bunch of young boys who sat before him and began to explain or rather express the thoughts from the passage. What unfolded then was pure magic - the magic of broadening the perspective of the boys who were on the verge of growing into men. The magic was accompanied by a daily miracle - the miracle of staying calm, staying dignified and staying peaceful despite the variations in seasons, systems and moods. I wonder if he was an inquisitive incarnation of the Buddha!
          The first time I watched the movie "Dead Poet's Society", John Keating was no stranger to me. I felt lucky to have had a teacher whose progeny Keating looked like! That might sound an exaggeration, but it is not. The character of Keating simply looked like a younger and a bit more groomed version of the fine English teacher I was blessed to be taught under. Like my teacher, Keating too taught English poetry and relished every bit of it.
         I know nothing of his personal life and I was officially his student for hardly ten months. (The official figures rarely reveal ground realities, the same is the case here. I have been his student at heart since the day my soul took refugee in him and I shall continue to be so.) That puts me in a position of insufficient knowledge to describe the man. Men of rational depth cannot be comprehended at least to a considerable extent in years and what information could I amass in months of a man whose only ornament was simplicity? Most attempts to describe simplicity end up either being exaggerated or being underrated. Simplicity is simply simple and so was the man.
             But the reason he is 'the' teacher to me is that being his student has been among the most cherished moments of my life time; By no means was I his 'Arjuna' or 'Ekalavya', but he certainly is my 'Dronacharya', who helped me discover a part of myself. I take pride in the fact that few of my first serious write ups were scrutinised by him and those few sessions of discussion I had the privilege to have with him have had immense impact on the way I perceive the world today.
            In an era of immense pressure of academic excellence, when the joy of learning is being drained out from the exercise of education, he was an exception - a honorable exception. I have seen many teachers consciously or unconsciously grading students on their academic performance or on the behaviour of the students, as they perceive. This at times leads to the danger of appreciation turning into discrimination. I never witnessed him prejudiced or with preconceived notions. Not a single student was treated with higher priority just because he had managed to score a notch higher than the other.  To him every student was like the other and maybe that is the reason none could claim to be either his 'Arjuna' or 'Ekalavya' !
           Never a man to use two words where one would suffice, he made sure that apt words were used so that the expression of a thought did justice to the emotion of its conception. There was a genuine ease in his teaching like that of a naturally flowing river. That ease was not only in the way he taught but also extended into the way thoughts got communicated from him to us. Crystal clarity in every thought he shared was his trademark - making him not just a flowing river, but the pristine flowing river.
            Above all, as I think how significant he has been in my life, I realise he is as significant to my writing as is the air to the breath; as significant to my living as is the earth to the tree. It is more like a 'door knob phenomenon', almost invisible but inevitable! He was never one to hog the limelight but characteristically blended with the background. The philosophy of his living, quintessentially frugal but beautiful, preached through practice has left an indelible impression on his students during our all important transition from school to college. His philosophy of life, approach to everyday living, unwavering professionalism fueled with immense passion but subtly channelised were unique, unparalleled and thought provoking. Knowledge, wisdom, simplicity and humanism blended exquisitely in the man that he could have been the best example for having lived a grandly simple life!
             As a teacher of a language, he emphasized not only on expression but also on the freedom of expression. Discussing an essay I had written, we arrived at a point on which I suppose he did not agree with the opinion I had expressed. Without imposing his disagreement, he helped me strengthen my argument! Years later when I read Voltaire and Neitszche, I realised how he had 'defended my right to say a thing though he disagreed with what I said!' Open to differing perspectives, the man is among the best I have seen who have lived up to Aristotle's dictum - "It is the mark of an educated mind to be able to entertain a thought without accepting it." His greatness lay in the fact that he never enforced his opinion or argument on his students but simply unsettled our minds so that we could think for ourselves and frame our own opinions.
            Now that I try to digest the hard fact that he is no more, the only ways I think I can pay tribute to him are to unsettle the minds of my students so that they too think for themselves and to commit myself to never submit to preconceived notions, but to stay open, unprejudiced and almost invisible!

Sep 20, 2012

ಭೂತದ ಭೂತಗಳು!


ಬೆಂಗಾಡು ಬಾಳು
ಬೆನ್ಬಿಡದೆ ಕಾಡ್ವ ಬಾಳ್ಗೀತೆಗಳು,
ಬರಿ ಪ್ರೇತಗಳು
ನೆನಪಿನಂಗಳದಿ ನಿಂತ ಭೂತಗಳು!

ನಾ ಮುಂದು, ತಾ ಮುಂದು
ನುಗ್ಗಿ ಬಂದು, ಮೈಯೇರಿ ಬಿದ್ದು
ಕಳಚಿ ಓಡ ಬಯಸಿದ್ದರೂ
ಬಿಡದೆ ಮನದೊಡಲ ಕಾಡ್ವ ಭೂತಗಳು!
ವಿಷ ಬೀಜಗಳು,
ಹಳೆ ನೆನಪುಗಳು, ಬಾಳ್ಗೀತೆಗಳು.

ಎಂದೋ ಎಲ್ಲಿಯೋ ನಡೆದದ್ದು
ಹಿಂದೆಂದಿನದ್ದೋ, ಇಂದಿನದಲದ್ದು
ಬಿಡಲೊಲದ್ದು, ಬಿಗಿಹಿಡಿದದ್ದು
ಇಂದು ಹಿಂದಿನ ಹಗೆ ಸಾರ್ವ ಭೂತಗಳು!
ಕರಿ ಛಾಯೆಗಳು,
ಕ್ಷುದ್ರ ಚಿಂತನೆಗಳು, ಬಾಳ್ಗೀತೆಗಳು.

ವರ್ತಮಾನಕ್ಕೂ ನಡೆದು ಬಂದು
ನೆಮ್ಮದಿಯ ಬಾಳ್ವೆಗೆ ಭಂಗ ತಂದು
ನರ ನೆತ್ತರು ಹೀರಿ, ಅದರೊಳೆ ಮಿಂದು
ಭೂತದೊಳಗೂತು ಹೋಗಬೇಕಿದ್ದ ಭೂತಗಳು!
ನರಕ ತೋರಣಗಳು,
ಮನ ವರ್ತುಲಗಳು, ಬಾಳ್ಗೀತೆಗಳು.

Sep 16, 2012

You liar!

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          Arguments are the bread and butter of the angel and the devil. One fine night, as they stared at the stars, they embarked on a conversation.
"Why don't you worship God?"
"Because, he is a liar!"
"Can't be. He has bestowed me with this blissful life of mine. I adore him. Why, why do you brand him so?"
"When I was landed down into this world, he asked me to walk to my right, facing the pole star to find this mountain peak which would be my abode. But the peak was to my left."
"Come on, I too was told the same. I am here because I followed his directions. And so should you also be."
"I doubted him, so walked left. And that is how I am here."
"Nay, you lie."
"Why should I?"
"Because I walked as was told and have found this abode."
"And I walked in the opposite direction to the same abode. You too lie, like the one you adore."
"Nay, neither do I lie, nor the one I adore. But you do!"
"You liar! How dare you say so?..."
"You liar! How dare you call me so?..."
"You liar!...."
"You liar!...."
....
....
        The fight went on late into the night and the earth below laughed to herself because she knew neither the angel nor the devil lied.

Sep 13, 2012

Folly to be wise.

Rowan Atkinson as Mr.Bean: Wise or Unwise!

     "Sorrow is knowledge, those that know the most must mourn the deepest, the tree of knowledge is not the tree of life." - Lord Byron 

 
       We are overloaded with information from all sides. Every now and then, there is a dosage of information awaiting to be consumed by us. We are extremely privileged if we have the freedom to choose between consuming it or simply denying it. Because, as I see it, not all information is knowledge, and not all knowledge is wisdom. Above all, its not wisdom alone that drives our lives.
         Living in what is dubbed as the 'information era', I have due respect to the power of information and knowledge. I have been witness to incidents where the phrase 'knowledge is power' has lived up to its literary description and even beyond. But sometimes I do wonder how much of knowledge is sufficient power and does the excess of knowledge lead to disastrous consequences as does the excess of power?
       Though I doubt the absolute validity of Ernest Hemingway's statement "Happiness in intelligent people is the rarest thing I know", the statement is not without its share of truth! Knowing much of a thing/event/person, beyond what is necessary neither adds to knowledge, nor serves any purpose. Or does it? I do not have a generalized answer yet and doubt if I will ever have one because its more of a circumstantial question. But I doubt if Obsessive Attention to Detail (OAD), which is advocated by few new age Gurus as an ingredient to the so called success, is really worth all that attention! Maybe in realms where it pays off to know, it is worth to know and in other arenas, it is simply best to shut up and enjoy the show!
          If you are an Engineer, and the more of the technicality you master, the better is the product you design. Now that is a case where 'you take care of the small things and the big things will take care of themselves.' But if you are married and you decide to dig into every detail of your spouse, then is it not a sure recipe for disaster? The small thing to take care here is not to interfere into their sphere of autonomy and not to dig deep because 'the devil is in the details'!
        The happiest of all are children. (These days, peer pressure and hyper competition seem to be screwing up their happiness too.) And why are they so happy? Because they do not need a reason to be happy. Its their innocence that leaves them lot happier than most of us can ever be. They dig either into the earth or into the walls but not into the details!
        Most acts, however kind and altruist, when dissected to the finer details and analyzed critically may reveal some gray shades. Rather than looking at the darker side of things, it is up to us to choose to appreciate the beauty of the brighter side. Is it such a huge crime to have few gray shades, after all we are all mortals and it is our love for our own selves that characterizes us!
       It is not that I advocate ignorance. I do not think any issue has a single, one-dimensional solution, unless within the covers of a text book! The solution of every issue has to be pursued on a case by case basis, considering its circumstantial and consequential factors. So, there is no legitimacy in claiming ignorance to be a pragmatic solution. But I find myself agreeing with Thomas Gray, who penned these lines -
Yet ah! why should they know their fate? 
Since sorrow never comes too late, 
And happiness too swiftly flies. 
Thought would destroy their paradise. 
No more; where ignorance is bliss, 
'Tis folly to be wise.
           Life is simply all about walking on the Razor's edge. We place our feet too hard, the razor pierces our feet and we bleed. We walk too lightly, we loose balance and fall. The only way to walk on it unharmed is to place our feet as hard and as soft as is required! Maybe there in lies the detailed secret!!

Sep 9, 2012

Dreams crown our thoughts.

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Dreams crowned our thoughts, we were children.
As we grew, aspirations and inspirations took hold.
Now that our blood boils, we talk of passion and compassion.
As life gets dizzy, maybe the chaos of adulthood calms our blood!
Will then be waiting in line those days of midlife crisis?
Caught in the confusion we deny, maybe we yearn for peace.
As age takes over our body and regrets take over our thoughts,
We look back and wonder where those dreams got lost?
Only to find out dreams still crown our thoughts
And we are still children in our hearts!

Sep 4, 2012

Search of joy.


Away from here, In all seclusion
Is a world of beauty, a spring of joy.
I wish with all heart I could be there
Free from bonds that do tie me here.
But the recluse of the land denies me entry
For he seems to know, what is beauty
And what is seemingly joy today to me
Need not, days later the same seem,
When in nostalgia I stroll down time's dream.
I shall seek new lands then
As have I since who knows when.
Wander into wilderness, loose sight of shore -
Abandoning what I thought was joy
In search of what I think would be joy!

Aug 21, 2012

Making sense.

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The angel and the devil were back to what they do best.
"You do not make sense," one complained to the other.
"Why do you think so?" asked the other.
"Because at times you are absolutely foolish, your actions absurd and your thoughts eccentric."
"And, why do you think so?"
"Because that is what you are. Absolutely senseless."
"Yet, why do you think so?"
"Because that is how you appear to me."
"Or is it because you think so?"

Aug 14, 2012

The enigma called 'women'

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Men themselves have wondered
What they see in me.
They try so much
But they can't touch
My inner mystery.
                         - Maya Angelou 
                         ('Phenomenal Women')

            Oh women*, the greatest enigma ever to have existed, will we men ever be able to understand a billionth of you? Or will it always be that you are from Venus and we from Mars!? What creatures are you? What is it that fills your heart? How many emotions, how many feelings have you buried in there? Each dimple and each wrinkle on your face, do they hide beneath them epic stories in grace? Has ever a man deciphered at least one among the million thoughts masked in every gaze and stare of yours?
         How come is nature so unfair? You women are made so calm, composed and complex all at a time while we men can't even claim the credit to be at least one at a time! Is this inherent unfairness because nature too like you all is a graceful lady who prefers to shoulder her emotional traumas all by herself? Is it that you women are not wired the way we men are? We men are poor in looking at what is invisible, understanding what is not told and reacting to what is yet to happen. To us, what is white is white and what is black is black. But to you, like those intelligent physicists who widened the horizons of our knowledge, white is made of seven colors! Oh wait, only seven? I am talking of 'women' and they are blessed with the ability of such enormous multiplicity of thoughts, that maybe even seven billion or trillion thoughts might get triggered in them by a single word of ours.
         No, I don't complain of incompatibility. After all you are nature's most prized creation! All that I intend to say is that I am simply amazed by the ability that women possess. Any supercomputer, however technically superior, shall fare poor if it had to compete with the thought processing ability of the female brain. What extraordinary parallel processing of thoughts. You are now here, now there and now everywhere. You handle this, that, even that and what not! To men a super hero is either a Superman, or a Spiderman or a Batman. But not to women, for each one of you is a combo of Superwoman, Spiderwoman and Batwoman!
       The simple presence of women in the lives of men, in whatever form- daughter, sister, friend, colleague, wife, girl friend, guide, teacher or above all mother - makes our life come alive. (I have not had the privilege of the company of women in all these forms, but only a few. And a friend of mine remarks that is precisely the reason I am more appreciative of them.) You have the best shoulders to cry on; you are the best shock absorbers in times of crisis; you have that magical 1000 Watt smile that lights us up on any gloomy day and that genuine gentleness coupled with child like innocence which eases the process of living and makes life simply beautiful!
         But why is it that most of the times, you mean different from what you say? Given the foolishness of men like us, how come do you expect us to read between the lines? If it was Shakespeare, Voltaire or Dostoevsky we could have managed for they were all men, but you are women. Those high energy thesis of the Higgs Boson experiment seem understandable because they are told the way they are. Oh, how I wish there was a compiler which decoded your words into your thoughts. If technology ever manages to come up with such a decoder, that will be its greatest contribution in easing the life of men! You share events and expect us to react to your emotions which arose as a consequence to those events. Who on earth gave you the false impression that men are damn smart? I doubt if God himself is so smart!
         When it hurts, do let us know it hurts. When you are happy, please reveal it to us. We are dumb enough to pick up the wrong vibes, insensitive enough to fail noticing changes (which always turn out to be significant to you, when we fail to gauge its - forget the significance - presence itself) So, you tell us and we shall know it. Not that we shall always be the same dumb fools, but you help us increase our sensitivity. And one fine day, maybe we too will reach that peak of minimum maturity where reading between your lines becomes a possibility. If possible, please be a bit more insensitive. When we men say a thing, we usually mean only what we say. Please do not derive interpretations which never actually existed.
       But maybe it is all easy said than done. Is it? And we men may find it too hard to understand why it is so tough for you to put your thoughts into words. Well, if this is the way it is, then let it be so. Sometimes a status quo is the only thing which is the way to progress, because that is the only way of survival. We expect when things seem to be in our sway and accept when we realize we are in the sway of things. What better can we mortals do? The battle of the sexes has no end, for its end only signifies the arrival of the doomsday.
     Yet, we owe to you much much than you ever owe to us. What if Shakespeare said, 'Fraility, thy name is woman!' The universe itself is frail, isn't it? I have sincerely come to believe that the best in the business deserve every word of exaggeration in appreciation. And as I see it, certain women are more than the best when it comes to living a complete life! So, the appreciation of women in case is exaggerated, is still justified! I step away and would prefer to take a bow to you, the unbelievable species, with whom we men coexist. Not just coexist, but on whom we depend much more than you do on us. Women, without you, life would not be what it is. Nay, wrong again. Women, without you, how on earth would life be!

* Obviously not all women are alike, especially not the way described in this post. A lot of women might themselves disagree with this. But there are adorable women made of this stuff of legends, living epic lives. And they are the enigma that elude me!

Jun 30, 2012

Freedom of thoughts.


I crave for the freedom of thoughts.
The freedom to not succumb to an ideology in vogue, 
but to understand its essence.
The freedom to not take sides of a well crafted argument,
but to appreciate its intricacies.
The freedom to not applaud the words of the powerful, 
but to assimilate the power of words.
The freedom to not borrow agreed perceptions of the best, 
but to explore and frame opinions. 
The freedom to not defend all criticism that is hurled, 
but to accept and introspect.
The freedom to not disrupt and wobble, 
but to dissent and rebel.
I crave for the freedom of thoughts.

Jun 23, 2012

You or I?


           The angel was looking into the future, when the devil arrived.
"Don't look much beyond the horizon" the devil told the angel.
"Why so?" the angel asked.
"Because you can't see anything."
"But at the school where we are trained to be angels, we were always taught to look into the future as the meaning of our actions is seldom in the past."
"And the purpose of our actions is seldom in the future."
"Was it taught to you in your training to be a devil?"
"Nay, all of us are trained in the same school. You believe and adhere to what is taught and we don't."
"But I too sometimes doubt and deny what is taught. And I have observed that you adhere to some of those principles, which my intuition denies."
"Maybe then in those moments, you are the devil and I, the angel!!"

Jun 21, 2012

Random reflections on being right.

 
Oh seasons, oh castles,
What soul is without flaws?
      - Arthur Rimbaud

    We all are born into this world with our share of flaws. None of us is flawless. Sometimes it is these flaws in us which make us what we are, teach us the lessons we need to learn and shape our lives for the better. It is not that I claim the flaws and imperfections to be right. But I think they form a necessary part of life's package. As we overcome the flaws, we live our lives. And sometimes that act of overcoming is what turns out to be the most important part of this great drama of life!

    But as individuals, part of the society, we are very much biased towards denying the flaws that characterize us. When a good friend points out a flaw of ours to us, the most common reaction we are conditioned to express is to find ways to defend it. Our mind gets involved in exploiting options and arguments which would put us on the path of being right. But, is being flawless actually being right? Or going a step further, is being right such a huge necessity? 

"There is nothing either good or bad, but thinking makes it so"
 - William Shakespeare (Hamlet)

    What is good and what not? What is right and what not? These are questions not to find answers but to actually find ourselves. An objective answer to these questions has eluded the best of all intellectual minds. The objectivity of right and wrong is battled on the turfs of moral and ethical philosophy for centuries. Was Thomas Scanlon right when he wrote - "Thinking about right and wrong is, at the most basic level, thinking about what could be justified to others on grounds that they, if appropriately motivated, could not reasonably reject."? But in the everyday living of ours, we all tend to behave in a way that we believe is right. So then, within each of us is an understanding of what we consider is right and what not. Given this understanding, is it that we live through life assimilating this understanding and behaving the right way or is it that we are compelled by the "need to be right" against our natural flow to live?

      Consider a girl who is engaged to a boy. They are supposed to get married in a couple of weeks, the kith and kin have been invited to grace their marriage ceremony and everything is being put in place for the 'fat' Indian wedding. Spending time with him, she realizes he is not what she supposed him to be. She gets to know that they both are of contrasting emotional wiring. She battles to let him know of their differences but the guy just can't understand what she yearns to convey. A week to the marriage, the girl gives up her attempts to make things work. Now, if she marries him owing to the pressure of the family because it is 'not the right thing to break the marriage after so much preparation', is she actually being right or is it the need to be right which coerced her into the knot?
     
"The need to be right is the sign of a vulgar mind." - Albert Camus

      Much of what is agreed to be right is not because we know it is right but because we agree to the social consensus of it being right. Despite the fact that social consensus is not independent of space and time, it is indeed very important. The social consensus on morality of an act is among the most vital governing authorities around which human civilizations have evolved. If not for its towering presence in our conscience, every civilization would have been reduced to anarchy! The system of law and justice is largely a codification of the social consensus on ethics and rights. But how far can the long arm of social consensus be allowed to stretch? And to what extent do we as individuals need to adhere to its judgment on right and wrong?

    Consider our own behaviour in every day life. Let us say at the place I work smoking is not considered to be the right thing and so I abstain from it there. Late in the night on a day of heavy workload, I stay back all alone at the workspace and since I am all alone, I smoke. Though I too consider it to be wrong, my desire and temptation succeed to get the better of me(as always!). But there is a raw(?) satisfaction because no one knows of the wrong I have committed. Despite having known I have wronged, I am considered by my colleagues at the workspace as being a righteous guy. Is it that I am actually right because being right is just a question of perception? Or is it that the entire notion of being socially right is flawed?

    Or that on another similar occassion I am caught smoking by one of my colleagues, who is gracious enough not to reveal it to anyone else. So whenever it is only the two of us working I start to smoke. My logic being that anyway he knows I smoke and what purpose in maintaing the image of 'being right' with him. Is this approach of mine towards the unmasking of myself right? Or is the act of committing something considered wrong irrespective of being watched, amounts to having done wrong?

“It is no longer being just and generous that makes us right; it is being successful." *

    Oh yeah, the dimension of success too is attached to the conception of being right! In the contemporary society of ours, maybe being successful is the most commonly agreed way of being right. (And this is the most paradoxical statement I could ever make!) We do not have an agreed notion of success anywhere but we agree to consider it to be a de-facto scale to call something right!

    Recently at a school near the place I live by, a mock election was conducted to introduce the concept of elections to students. A child (I call him a child because I was told he was barely 13 years old), who contested in it as a candidate demanded his father to buy certain gift items for him, which he intended to distribute among his friends who formed the electoral collage. On asking why he wanted it so badly, he said he needs to win the election and it was success alone that could assure him his 'right' place in the class! Is success an absolutely necessary pre-requisite in our struggle to be 'right'? Or is that the charm of so called success encashes on our credulity?

     I do not claim to know the answers to the questions which did arise in this unorganized, raw flow of thought. If left to roam around, these thoughts never settle down. Breaking away from their sway, I take refugee in Ghalib. Commenting on his verses and the right meaning they conveyed, he writes - "Na sataaish ki tamanna, na sile ki parvah. Gar nahi hai mere ashar me mani, na sahi." (Neither the desire for praise, nor the craving for reward. If my verses have no meaning, then so be it.) If in a world of infinitely many possibilities, my actions do not qualify to be called 'right', then so be it!

* This seemingly ironic quote is part of the larger statement “We are suffering a reign of terror because human values have been  replaced by contempt for others and the worship of efficiency, the  desire for freedom by the desire for domination. It is no longer being just and generous that makes us right; it is being successful.”, attributed to Albert Camus. But I doubt if it is a mis attribution.

Jun 16, 2012

पता नहीं



जिन गलियों में तुम जा रही हो,
उन गलियों के पता हमे नहीं।
जिन ख्वाबों में तुम आ रही हो,
उन ख्वाबों के पता तुमे नहीं।

तेरी गलियां मेरे ख़्वाबों तक लाये,
ऐसे ख्वाहिश बुनता हूँ मै रोज़ यही।
लेकिन इस दिल के गुजारिश की पता 
ज़िन्दगी के साज़िश रचने वाले को नहीं।

(Those paths on which you leave,
I know not where they lie.
These dreams into which you frequent,
You know not where they lie.

Your paths lead into my dreams,
Always do I knit hopes like these.
But the one who mystifies life 
Knows not where the wishes of this heart lie!)

May 12, 2012

ಸಂಜೆ ಬಾನು


                      

ಸಂಜೆಮಲ್ಲಿಗೆ ಅರಳೊ ಹೊತ್ತಲಿ
ಬಾನು ಮೆಲ್ಲಗೆ ಆಡಿದೆ ಹೊನ್ನಿನೋಕುಳಿ!

ಕೊಂಚ ಕೆಂಪು ತೇಲಿ
ಗಗನದ ವರ್ಣಶಾಲೆಯೊಳೂಡಿದೆ ಸಂಚು.
ಅಮ್ಮನ ಬಿಳಿ ನೀಲಿ
ಸೀರೆಗೊಲಿಸಿದಂತಿದೆ ಬಂಗಾರದ ಅಂಚು!

 ೨

ಪಡುವಣದಿ ಹೊನ್ನ ಕಿರಣ
ಮೋಡದಂಚಿಂದಿಣುಕಿ ನಗುವ ತರುಣ!

ಹಲ್ಕಿರಿದವಂಗೆ ಮನ ಸೋತು
ನಾಚಿ ನೀರಾದವಳಂತೆ ಮುಸ್ಸಂಜೆಯಲಿ ಭೂಬಾಲೆ.
ಕನ್ಯೆಯ ಒಲವ ಪಿಸುಮಾತು
ಕೇಳಿ ಕೆನ್ನೆ ಕೆಂಪೇರಿಸಿದವನಂತೆ ಮುಗಿಲಮಾಲೆ!

May 11, 2012

Rhyming Haikus

1

the winds of change flow
through my heart
its sliced, lays apart.


2

lives tied together
i perish,
why do you cherish?


3

equality is 
guaranteed
have to pray and plead.


4

all along the climb
I often
stampede my brethren.


May 7, 2012

From the mad dark diary..

   
    The nights are dark, dark and dark. Its night because I have closed my eyes and it shall be day when they are wide open. I wonder if nights are supposed to be so dark, dark and dark. The days are bright though. But not bright enough to reveal what in all subtleness is concealed. My case file asserts this itself is the psychological disorder from which I suffer. It reads I am diagnosed with blah, blah, blah (those abstruse and lengthy Medical terms - I hate them) - something that roughly means I am a worse cynic! Obviously, I doubt it. I am yet to comprehend in its entirety all that appears revealed but I suppose is delicately concealed. I intend to discover the truth before I am 'cured' of this disorder.
     
      Beautiful were those days when I lived in a world of my own. Free to live, free to dream, free to express. How would have I known the path to imprisonment is through freedom! In the world of blind, to see light is a crime. I did what would have been decades ago hailed an achievement, and I still believe is an achievement. But times had changed and to the majority, mine was an act of questionable righteousness. In the so called democratic setup, it is the dictatorship of the majority. The majority who wield power. The majority, whose only common attribute despite the starking contrasts they put on display is the brutality with which they crush those who refuse to join them.

     For how long have I been here? Oh, I have lost count of time. Without a clock, within four walls for years together or is it decades? It now seems like it has been for eternity. Long ago, in my initial days at the hospital, I can remember how I was introduced to the policy of this hospital. A very interesting policy was designed by the management. To ensure efficiency, two pools of staff were created - one of  medical attendants and the other of financial consultants. The medical attendants were to obtain the appreciation of the patients since their pay was tied to the satisfaction reported by the patients, vis-a-vis the service rendered by the attendants. I still don't understand how could they possibly tie up the tangible pay to the intangible satisfaction! And those financial consultants were supposed to prescribe the level of health care each patient could afford, after studying their assets, liabilities and God knows what else. Tangible reports to gauge the intangible care they deserve!

     This particular rainy dark night was gloomy, very gloomy actually. The old woman was brought in to the bed by my side. She was put under observation after being operated for what was claimed to be the deadliest disease reported in ages. I was told that she was a researcher. She had extensively worked on the emerging stranglehold of darkness and went on to gain admirable expertise in the field. Before she could conclude her path breaking work, the disease had caught up with her and now she was lying here in absolute darkness as her eyes were closed.

      The night was dark and the woman was crying in pain. The attendants refused to administer medicine because it was night and the woman could not see who had administered medicine to her. They decided to wait till the morning, so that they could be seen and her satisfaction could fetch them their pay. The cries were haunting. When once she screamed, it was as if darkness had gained voice and the shrill pierced through the silence and loneliness of the night.

    At the early hours in the morning, it was found that the condition of the woman had predictably worsened. Now the medical attendants demanded that her level of health care had to be upgraded. The financial consultant refused because the reports doubted her ability to pay for the expenses of higher levels of care. As the woman made feeble attempts to let light into her eyes, she saw the medical attendants fighting to have her care facility upgraded. Little did she realize they waited all through the night to be seen fighting for her survival.

      As the clash peaked and grew out of control, the highest authority walked in to settle the scores. I had waited long to see the authority. He had created this entire system. Wielded the power over the working of what is hailed a flawless endeavor but is absolutely flawed in my perception. Despite staying here for over decades, I had never got to see him because it would always be dark when he walks in. Light abandons its existence when he is present for I always go blind in his presence. I now realized I had a chance to catch a glimpse of him as everyone was engrossed in the clash and I sneaked close to the authority as he walked in, darkening everything around.

      It got dark and one could only hear the voice of the authority who whispered to the fighting duo to allow her care level to be upgraded only to downgrade it once she falls asleep again, thereby preventing her from death and simultaneously neither allowing her to completely recover. As he walked away, I too sneaked along with him in the darkness. I was walking along with him, whom I had always yearned to understand, whose acts I always yearned to decipher. Now, was the chance to discover the darkness that had snatched away my freedom, that had haunted my thoughts all these nights. When I opened my eyes to light, I was shocked to identify the authority.

    The light had turned dark as if it was night.
    I faced myself.

Apr 26, 2012

Can we fly?

Picture credit: hindu.com
 "To be born again, first you have to die.
To land upon the bosomy earth, first one needs to fly.
How to ever smile again, if first you won't cry?
How to win the darling's love without a sigh?"
                                         - Salman Rushdie

         The angel stared at the black sky. Sleep was out of sight because a dream had planted new ideas and these ideas never let anyone sleep in peace.
The devil walked in. It sat beside the angel admiring the darkness.
The angel kicked off the conversation. "Do you think we can fly by ourselves?"
"What non sense? We are not born to fly."
"How do you know?"
"Come on, we both know that."
"I doubt. We never know until we have tried." 
The devil jumped into the air and fell back. "See, we can't fly. I tried just now." 
"Not like this, I mean we have to give time to ourselves while in air to discover if we can really fly. Maybe like jump off the cliff and you will have ample amount of time to know for yourself."
"Oh, so when are you breaking your back?"
"No, I don't think I am ready yet."
"Spare me of your foolish ideas and let me sleep now."

          Deep into the night, when the devil woke up, the angel was fast asleep.
But the devil had had a dream and now sleep eluded him. He took a walk. As he walked towards the edge of the cliff, he was overpowered by the idea and took a leap of faith.

Apr 18, 2012

ಇಳೆಯ ಪುಳಕ !!



ಭೋರ್ಗರೆದಿದೆ ಮಳೆ ಇಂದು,
ಪುಳಕಿತಳಾದಳೊ ಇಳೆ ಮಿಂದು!!  

ವರುಷದ ಕಾಯುವಿಕೆಯೂ
ಫಲಿಸಿ ಹರುಷಸಿಂಚನ
ಹರಿವ ಘಳಿಗೆಯಿಂದು.
ಭೋರ್ಗರೆದಿದೆ ಮಳೆ ಇಂದು,
ಪುಳಕಿತಳಾದಳೊ ಇಳೆ ಮಿಂದು!!

ಸುಡು ಬಿಸಿಲಿದ್ದರೂ
ಸುರಿವ ರೈತನಶ್ರುಧಾರೆಯ
ತಾತ್ಕಾಲಿಕ ತಡೆಯಿಂದು.
ಭೋರ್ಗರೆದಿದೆ ಮಳೆ ಇಂದು,
ಪುಳಕಿತಳಾದಳೊ ಇಳೆ ಮಿಂದು!!

ಸಕಲ ಜೀವರಾಶಿಗಳಿಗೂ
ಜೀವಜಲದ ನಿರಂಕುಶ
ಅಮೃತ ಪಾನವಿಂದು.
ಭೋರ್ಗರೆದಿದೆ ಮಳೆ ಇಂದು,
ಪುಳಕಿತಳಾದಳೊ ಇಳೆ ಮಿಂದು!!

ಮೊಳಕೆಯೊಡೆದು ಭೂ
ಗರ್ಭದಿಂದುಗಮಿಸಿದ
ಅಂಕುರ ಗಾನವಿಂದು.
ಭೋರ್ಗರೆದಿದೆ ಮಳೆ ಇಂದು,
ಪುಳಕಿತಳಾದಳೊ ಇಳೆ ಮಿಂದು!!

ಸಂತಸ ಸಂಭ್ರಮವೂ,
ಅಡಗಿದ ಸಡಗರದ
ಸರಾಗ ಸುರಪಾನವಿಂದು.
ಭೋರ್ಗರೆದಿದೆ ಮಳೆ ಇಂದು,
ಪುಳಕಿತಳಾದಳೊ ಇಳೆ ಮಿಂದು!!

ದಿವ್ಯ ಆನಂದಭಾಷ್ಪವೂ
ಕೈವಲ್ಯಪ್ರಾಯ ಧರೆಸ್ಪರ್ಶ
ಗೈದ ಭವ್ಯ ಭಾವೋದ್ಗಾರವಿಂದು.
ಭೋರ್ಗರೆದಿದೆ ಮಳೆ ಇಂದು,
ಪುಳಕಿತಳಾದಳೊ ಇಳೆ ಮಿಂದು!!

Apr 13, 2012

So near, yet so far.



I am so near, yet so far.
I am so near, yet so far.

I get my hands on to it.
But I don't get it.
I do get it;
Miss it.

I am so near, yet so far.
I am so near, yet so far.

I am least afraid of them.
But I do fear them.
I don't care;
Or I do.
 

I am so near, yet so far.
I am so near, yet so far.

I have always looked after her.
But I never looked at her.
She walks away;
As she nears.

I am so near, yet so far.
I am so near, yet so far.

I have answers to questions.
But remain the questions.
They are answered;
As new queries.

I am so near, yet so far.
I am so near, yet so far.

I too act like all, professed.
But truly am confused.
I think so;
I don't.

I am so near, yet so far.
I am so near, yet so far.

Apr 11, 2012

A lot of difference.



“Sar Zamin-e-hind par aqwaam-e-alam ke firaq
kafile guzarte gae Hindustan banta gaya”
(“In the land of Hind, the Caravans of the people of
the world kept coming in and India kept getting formed”)
- Firaq Gorakhpuri  
    

       Despite the tremendous strides we have achieved as a nation and society, the ill feelings between ourselves owing to our religious differences have not totally  vanished. They sometimes appear to be consciously watered. Hatred being fed into young minds on various pretexts. The growing religious extremism haunts us mainly at two levels, as I perceive it. One, at the mass level - leading to various communal clashes. Two, at the intellectual level - leading to gross misconceptions about our religions and the true ideals they preach. 
         Though we claim to be highly educated, a large chunk of the educated class is yet to shun of its preoccupations on religious misconceptions. The never ending suspicion about the guy who wears an orthodox dress, lack of respect to a teacher whose accent supposedly reveals his religion, the foolish assumption that bearded guys are either of a particular religion or are a depressed lot. (God! How frequent a victim I have been to this assumption, all thanks to the beard I sport, well complemented by a supposedly dumb face!) Why, why these baseless set of reasoning? Why these shameless set of attitudes? Why this kolaveri di?
        As I shuffled through the pages of The Hindu (Apr 10, 2012), a newspaper which has become much more than a part of my life, I came across this very interesting letter from a reader. The letter is the precise piece which triggered this blog post.(I have taken the liberty to publish the letter on this blog, copying as it is from the official website of The Hindu here: http://www.thehindu.com/opinion/letters/article3297788.ece).

Brilliant

      In his brilliant article “A Sufi message from a Pakistani President” in the OpEd page of The Hindu (April 9), Saeed Naqvi mentions that Hasrat Mohani “… fancied that God had sent prophets to every country and the one he sent to India was Lord Krishna!” Nawab Akbar Yar Jung was a Judge of the Hyderabad High Court in the Nizam's Government. On August 11,1936, he addressed a meeting on the occasion of the Krishna Janmashtami in which he quoted the Holy Quran, 49:78, “We sent Apostles before Thee: there are some of them that We have mentioned to thee and others we have not mentioned.”
     “The Hindus; they accept Ramachandra and Shri Krishna as their religious leaders. We must therefore unhesitatingly accept them as prophets. I belong to a much hated sect of people who already hold this view. I do not hesitate to accept Shri Krishna (upon him be peace) as a prophet.”
      That reads as Krishna Alehsalam — a honorific not lightly used; Jesus is — Isa Alehsalam. There was a protest in Hyderabad against this speech and the Nizam reprimanded Bahadur Yar Jung. But no adverse action followed. That shows the catholicity of that government, chiefly due then to Sir Akbar Hydari, a Bohra.
       I think Nawab Akbar Yar Jung was an Ahmediya. He was the father of my dear friend and classmate Prof. Rasheedudeen Khan. When as a teenager, I spent my holidays with them, Nawab Sahib used to say to me, “Mian, Main Krishna Janmbhoomi ka hoon. Yeh log nahin samjenge!” Rasheed's mother was a Hyderabadi! Sir Mohammed Iqbal called Rama, Imam-i-Hind. Nawab sahib was calling Krishna a prophet, alehsalam. For those who understand these niceties, there is a lot of difference.
B.P.R. Vithal,
Hyderabad

        How beautiful! People of tolerance and acceptance are those who add to the faith and hope that one day all of us shall no more derive our identity based on the religions into which we were born but we shall take pride of the truly secular society in which we live. Everyday all around us are such souls of compassion and humanism. The ordinary men and women we encounter everyday and who make our every moment's peaceful co-existence a reality are actually extraordinary. Despite the lot of difference in their beliefs and culture it is the strength of this diversity that has kept the subcontinent alive and colourful. A responsibility each of us has to shoulder is to better it.
          Not long back, during the days of the controversy regarding the inclusion of A K Ramanujan's essay of 'Three hundred Ramayanas' in Delhi University course, I read an interesting anecdote in a magazine. An ex-judge of the Tamil Nadu High court, I don't remember his name exactly, probably Justice Hidayatullah was during his time considered the foremost authority on the Tamil epic Kamba Ramayana. Interests and curiosities know no barrier of religion and geographic boundaries, then why enforce them on the beautiful lives of posterity?
         As I read through the letter, I was reminded of these immortal lines, penned by the inimitable Sahir Ludhianvi -
तू हिन्दू बनेगा ना मुसलमान बनेगा
इंसान की औलाद है, इंसान बनेगा ।
....
नफरत जो सिखाये, वो धरम तेरा नहीं है।
इन्साफ जो रोंदे, वो कदम तेरा नहीं हैं।
कुर'आन ना हो जिसमे वो मंदिर नहीं तेरा,
गीता ना हो जिसमे वो हरम तेरा नहीं है ।
तू अमन का और सुलह का अरमान बनेगा।
इंसान की औलाद है, इंसान बनेगा ।
....
(Neither a Hindu nor a Muslim shall you become.
A human progeny are you. A human shall you become
......
Which preaches hatred, that religion is not yours.
Which tramples justice, that footstep is not yours.
Where is no Qur'aan, that temple is not yours.
Where is no Geeta, that Mosque is not yours.
An apostle of peace and harmony shall you become.
A human progeny are you. A human shall you become
......)

        The letter also took me down the memory lane. As a middle school kid, I was lucky to be taught Hindi and History(Social Science actually) by two Muslim teachers. I still remember how balanced the History sir would handle the subject of Muslim invasion into India and the growth of Hindu kingdoms down South. Though the delicacy of the issue was beyond my perception back then, I marvel at the ability of such teachers who assure objectivity and avoid flawed extremism from being sowed into tender minds. Both of them loved to play Cricket and we children got to play with them a few afternoons during the recess. Though I frequently dropped catches, I picked up the beauty of Urdu as a language. I do owe my present craze for Ghalib's poetry to those gentlemen.
        A few months ago, an elderly Muslim friend invited me to his new textile shop inauguration ceremony. Though I prefer to avoid ceremonial events, I chose to attend this one. He was indeed a very long acquaintance and there was no dearth of feel good moments despite decades of age difference between us. Unaccustomed with their tradition, I went to the venue well in time for the occasion. I wore a shirt and trouser unlike everyone else who were dressed in ceremonial kurtas, with the white topi adorning their heads. It was apparent that I had walked in too early and was obviously the odd one out. Minutes later the auspicious rendering of prayer was supposed to begin. It was a very small shop, hardly accommodating fifteen of us. The Maulvi looked at the owner, my friend and maybe his eyes questioned my presence. As I stood up to walk out, the gentleman - my friend held me and asked me to sit by his side in the very forefront. He told the Maulvi - "Apna hi ladka hai". The next fifteen minutes I sat through a blissful rendition of prayer, much of which I did not understand, but did get the feel of 'ameen'. 
         Yes, for those who understand these niceties, there is a lot of difference.

Apr 9, 2012

Lost or Won?


As always, the angel and the devil were engaged in a duel of words.
"I lost because I wanted to. Sometimes I yearn to be called a failure."
"But it is not failure when you succeed to fail."
"When you want to win and you win, its a victory - a success. When you want to loose and you loose, it has to be defeat - a failure."
"Not all defeats are failures. You have got what you wanted."
"To get what you want, need not be to have succeeded."

Mar 30, 2012

Climb.


We know not why we sing in rhyme.
We know not if we sing in rhyme...
We know not why to the top we climb.
We know not if to the top we climb...

The ladder is long, awaiting us climb.
To climb beyond and scale the summit.
The future is blur, unconcerned we climb.
To climb beyond with no eye on the summit.

Why climb if not to scale the summit?
Because there are interesting species to meet.
Fruits - tasty to eat; Flowers - beauty to greet.
Rugged terrains to explore - unique and discrete.

To scale it a feat, just because it is the peak?
To do only because it is to be done is no tweak.
The dance and treat, to us all sounds Greek.
The higher dreams, we climb to discover and seek.

As we climb and rhyme, the cliff does shine.
Abandoning the climb, we realize we are inane.
Head to the cliff, Assure we are absolutely fine,
Take a breath, Jump off the cliff and fly insane.

We know not why we sing in rhyme.
We know not if we sing in rhyme...
We know not why to the sky we fly.
We know not if to the sky we fly...

Mar 14, 2012

पिया तो से मन लागे रे

पिया तो से मन लागे रे
जहाँ भी जाहूँ तेरे याद आये रे।

तू जैसे बहती हवा
न जानू खुदा के घर का पता।
तू जैसे उडती फिज़ा
न जानू मुझको क्यूँ ऐसी सज़ा।
तू जैसे दिखती समा
न जानू कैसी अंधे थे हम वहाँ।

पिया तो से मन लागे रे
तेरे लिए मेरी नज़रे तरसाये रे। 

कब क्या करे
तेरे यादो में ना जाने रे।
अब यूँ डरे
तेरे बातो में दिल तामे रे।
जब सर फिरे
तेरे राहो में गुमराह जाये रे।

पिया तो से मन लागे रे
बिन तेरे कैसे जिया जाये रे?

कहना भी चाहूँ
दिल की हाजारों आरजु तुझसे यूँ।
मनाना भी चाहूँ
जो मुझसे रूट गए हो तुम।
मरना भी चाहूँ
खुदा के महफिल सजाने मै भी आहूँ?

Mar 10, 2012

The white among the blues!!

        
"... gladiatorial intensity and monkish one pointedness of purpose; .. glint in the eyes, the eyes of a born warrior marooned in the belly of the Sahara desert with less than a day's ration left...."
                                                       - Nirmal Shekar, talking of Rahul Dravid.

       As middle school kids in the late 90s, only two things in cricket made sense to us. The runs scored by Sachin and the deliveries 'consumed' by Dravid. We, most of the times, cursed the later for 'wasting' deliveries. (He does hold the world record for facing highest number of deliveries in Test cricket - a whooping 31258!) ODIs, back then to us, meant nothing more than a full furnished version of the 'hit the ball with the bat' game we played on the streets, in the classrooms and into the kitchen!
      Only as age grew, the charm of test cricket got revealed. Then did I realize, however nail bitting a thriller was, the beauty of romancing poetry would be the most pleasing of all reading exercises. Then did the craze for men in blue die down and was born the benign bliss of watching the monk in white mediatate through innings of mammoth duration with almost absolute resoluteness. The calmness and dignity, the steadfastness and selflessness - Sometimes, I wonder if Dravid was that philosopher who preached only by practicing.
       For most in our generation, born after the Gavaskar and Kapil Dev era into the Tendulkar regime, Indian test cricket and Rahul Dravid are synonymous. Even people who never understood a speck of Test cricket would watch a few overs when the Dravid in white held fort. To be bathed in the radiance of his patient approach were moments to be cherished for.
      If as in football, a list of best defenders would be made in Cricket, not many would deny Dravid a rank at the helm. It was not for no reason that he was called 'The Wall' or 'Mr.Reliable'. He was that breed of batsmen who put the highest price on their wicket. No bowler was ever given his wicket, the bowler had to toil to take it. Years ago, rushing out of an exam hall, I called a friend to ask him the score. He told - "Pray God to save wickets at one end." Any guy could have understood Dravid stood at the other end.
      A second fiddle like no other, Dravid has been part of some extraordinary partnerships in cricketing history. Many fine innings of Tendulkar, Ganguly and Laxman were carved out in Dravid's company. He stood along when they stood, he stood alone when none stood. In a game of uncertainties, Dravid was for long the certain guardian. Though a specialist No.3, he did open the innings when the team needed him to or came in late at No.6, when that was asked of him. How forget the days when he kept wickets in a bid to stabilize the team's make up.
       While men of muscle skied the ball across the boundary, Dravid was more of an artist who worked for the singles and twos as if engineering his way to pursue them. Despite the storms, downpours or scorching heat - the likes of Waqar Younis, Glenn McGrath or Allan Doland - Dravid would water the seeds of an innings unperturbed and see through every stage of its growth, fighting with the grit of a never-die spirited farmer who gave all his to ensure the plant flowered and bear fruits. However high the stakes or however immense the pressure mounted, never a sign of rage. If Indian cricket is an orchestra troop, whose soothing music we have enjoyed, then the invisible conductor whose face has seldom hogged the limelight is Rahul Dravid. Always calm, composed and beyond doubt the man for all seasons, either on field or off field.
       As I close my eyes and think of Dravid, to my mind always comes a picture. On a field among men in blue I see him in white. He is all set to face the delivery. Shifts body weight to the back foot, waits for the ball and plays his characteristic late cut so late that it appears as if he just pushed the ball out of the keeper's gloves. Before I can completely grasp the beauty of it, he is out of his crease and running.... This time, not to come back again...

Mar 4, 2012

ನಮ್ಮಯ ಬಾಳಿನ ಕತೆಗಳು.

ಜನನದಿ ಖಾಲಿ ಹಾಳೆಯು,
ಮರಣದಿ ತುಂಬುವವು ಪುಟಗಳು.
ಬರೆವೆವು ಬದುಕಿಹ
ಕ್ಷಣಗಳಲಿ
ನಮ್ಮಯ ಬಾಳಿನ
ಕತೆಗಳನು.

ಅಳತೆಗೆ ಸಿಲುಕದ ಅಲೆಗಳಿವು,
ಕ್ಷಣ ಉರುಳುವಲಿ ಏರಿಳಿವುವವು.
ಏರುತ ಇಳಿಯುತ
ಆಡುವಲಿ
ಕಲಿವೆವು ಬದುಕುವ
ಸೂತ್ರವನು.

ಅಲ್ಲಗಳೆದು ಆಡುವ ಆಟವನು
ಕಟ್ಟಿಕೊಂಡೆವು ಸ್ಪರ್ಧೆಯ ಮಾಟವನು.
ಎಡವದೇ ಏರುತಲಿರಬೇಕೆಂಬ
ಅನಿವಾರ್ಯದಲಿ
ಅಗ್ನಿಗಾಹುತಿ ಕೊಡಲೊರಟೆವು
ಸರ್ವಸಮ್ಮತಿಯನು.

ಏರುವ ಭರದಿ ನಾವುಗಳು
ತುಳಿವೆವು ಹಲವರ ಶಿರಗಳನು.
ಒಂದೇ ದಿಕ್ಕಿಗೋಡುವ
ನೀತಿಯಲಿ
ತೊರೆದೆವು ಸರ್ವತೋಮುಖ
ರೀತಿಯನು.

ಸೂತ್ರದಿ ಬೆಸೆದ ಕತೆಗಳಿವು
ಗಮನಿಸೆ ಕಾಣ್ವುದತಿ ಸೂಕ್ಷ್ಮವು.
ಕಂಡಂತಿದ್ದರು ಸಾಮ್ಯವು
ಮೇಲ್ನೋಟದಲಿ
ಕಾಣ್ವೆವು ಒಳಗಿಣುಕೆ
ಭಿನ್ನವನು.

ನಮ್ಮೀ ಕತೆಯನೋದುವ ಪೀಳಿಗೆಯು
ನಿರುತ್ತರರಾಗಿಯೇ ನಿಂತಿರುವ ನಾವುಗಳು.
ಎಲ್ಲರೂ ಸವೆವರು
ಕಾಲದಲಿ
ಮೃತ್ಯುಂಜಯನೇನ್
ಮಾನವನು?

Feb 29, 2012

Revisiting 221B, Baker Street!!




'Omne ignotum pro magnifico' 
(The unknown is always thought to be magnificent)
     This is my favorite phrase from Latin. A very true one. As long as we do not get to know someone from very close quarters, we look at them in awe. But on getting close and discovering their mortality and imperfections, the awe dies down. But, I am witness to an exception - the most extraordinary exception. The character, who introduced the phrase to me more than a decade ago still appears as magnificent as he did on that fateful day or probably even more! What an irony to call him an exception who always rejected them - "I never make exceptions. An exception disproves the rule." Yes, the magnificent one is none other than Mr.Sherlock Holmes!! 
      Tough to capture the essence of Sherlock in words. Or is he just beyond description? The best I have come across yet is his own! As he states in 'The Sign of Four': "There are in me the makings of a very fine loafer and also of a pretty spry sort of fellow. I often think of those lines of old Goethe - Schade dass die Natur nur Einen Mensch aus Dir schuf, Denn zum wuerdigen Mann war und zum Schelmen der Stoff. (Nature, alas, made only one being out of you, Although there was material for a good man and a rogue.)"
      Given his character, he could have gone on to be the best philosopher or scientist in the world of fictional literature. But, he was Sherlock and he had his own way of doing things - a way no one else could even think of!! "My mind, rebels at stagnation. Give me problems, give me work, give me the most abstruse cryptogram or the most intricate analysis, and I am in my own proper atmosphere. I can dispense then with artificial stimulants. But I abhor the dull routine of existence. I crave for mental exaltation. That is why I have chosen my own particular profession, or rather created it, for I am the only one in the world." The world's first and beyond doubt the best consulting detective! “The only unofficial consulting detective. I am the last and highest court of appeal in detection." One whose singular ability to deduce truth has never had any near competition in the universe.
       Holmes, the master of the Science of deduction, is not just a fictional character brought to life by the imaginative genius of Sir Arthur Canon Doyle; but is that charisma and enigma which has shaped the way detective fiction, criminology, forensic science, human psychology, the science of cognition, the philosophy of logic and reasoning have evolved over generations. He is of that rarest breed of characters who elevated criminal investigation to a fine art and a science demanding subtle observation and intelligent research. The impact of the over 150 year old character (his first appearance was in 1857) on the field is so profound that in 2002, the Royal Society of Chemistry bestowed an honorary fellowship of their organisation upon Holmes, for his use of forensic science and analytical chemistry, making him the only fictional character to be thus honoured! His influence on serious academic research is also noteworthy. Google scholar shows up the mention of Holmes in highly regarded research papers in fields as diverse as expert psychology, analytical chemistry and medical jurisprudence among many others.
        He is also one of the finest intelligent entertainers - a hot favorite on stage and on screen as well. The Guinness World Records has consistently listed Sherlock Holmes as the "most portrayed movie character" with more than 75 actors playing the part in well over 200 screen adaptations and the list is still growing strong! (If you never watched 'Jeremy Brett' play Holmes to perfection, curse yourself for not yet catching up the performance of the bygone century! Also Benedict Cumberbatch does make a sound impression in the BBC's fine recreation of 'Sherlock'.)
Jeremy Brett as Sherlock on screen.
         The chemistry between Holmes, the character and Doyle, his creator is one which has no parallels in the realm of literature. Theirs was probably a duel like no other. Maybe Holmes out lived Doyle in all the ways. Doyle did almost kill Holmes in the 'Final problem', may be he was desperate to - "even if I buried my bank account with him," he wrote in his autobiography. He was relieved during the 'Great Hiatus', as is evident from his statement - "I have been much blamed for doing that gentleman to death, but I hold that it was not murder, but justifiable homicide in self-defense, since, if I had not killed him, he would certainly have killed me." But Holmes worked his way out! Doyle had to relent to the mounting pressure from publishers and public alike, Holmes reappeared in the 'Adventure of the empty house' outwitting death too! Despite the enormous success and following Doyle enjoyed, courtesy Holmes, he actually complained in his later years - "If I had never touched Holmes, who has tended to obscure my higher work, my position in literature would at the present moment be a more commanding one."
      We talk of Holmes and we don't talk of Watson, we are not talking of Holmes! Or, as Holmes himself rightly pointed out, “Where would I be without my Boswell?” One of the finest friendships, with its unique intricacies. I don't think it an exaggeration to say, any guy shall feel jealous of Holmes for having a companion as good as Dr.Watson! "Come at once if convenient — if inconvenient come all the same" is how Holmes sends for Watson! Though very cold blooded and never a man for sentiment, Holmes has a very special regard for Watson, which is seldom revealed. Except in an adventure where Watson gets hurt and recalls it as a worthy wound, "it was worth many wounds - to know the depth and loyalty of love which lay behind the cold mask. The clear hard eyes were dimmed for a moment, and the firm lips were shaking. For the one and only time I caught a glimpse of a great heart as well as a great brain."
       Despite Watson's claims that Holmes' "ignorance was as remarkable as his knowledge", Holmes does at times appear to be a polymath. He quotes from Goethe, remembers details of little known historical facts, his knowledge in Chemistry is simply amazing and the geography of London is a child's play to him! Maybe he knew too well that to master the important, the biggest prerequisite was to recognize and leave behind the unimportant. 
     Why does his character stand out for more than a century and a half, that too in times of such immense changes? Because there was none like him before and there can none ever be like him, except him. As straight forward as it gets - "I cannot agree with those who rank modesty among their virtues. To the logician all things should be seen exactly as they are, and to underestimate one's self is as much a departure from the truth as to exaggerate one's powers." Absolutely logical, unflawed reasoning - "It is an old maxim of mine that when you have excluded the impossible, whatever remains, however improbable, must be the truth." Undying yearning to learn - "Education never ends Watson. It is a series of lessons with the greatest for the last." Much beyond us, but still like us - "It was easier to know it than to explain why I know it." The most vigilant eyes, tailor made for detail - "You see, but you do not observe. The distinction is clear." Subtle and subtle to the core - "It is, of course, a trifle, but there is nothing so important as trifles."
      Holmes is one of variety. Each Holmesian has his own reason to adore the Master. Despite the differences, he is never less than an obsession to each one. What work and cocaine were to Holmes, that is Holmes to us. For me, what absolutely stands out in the master sleuth is his philosophy towards life. There is no dearth of philosophical insights in his monologues and punch lines - "Everything in this world is relative, my dear Watson."; "When one tries to rise above Nature one is liable to fall below it."; "Life is infinitely stranger than anything which the mind of man could invent." He can go on and on like this for a very long time. Credit, recognition, fame were never among his incentives. To him work and work alone was the source of all pleasure in life. Cocaine served as a feeble substitute in the absence of challenging work. "The work is its own reward." - the line by which he lived and almost died! His clarity in this approach never witnessed a change. It was always - "I prefer to work anonymously, and it is the problem itself which attracts me." Never could the temptation of jumping to conclusions beat him - "It is a capital mistake to theorize before you have all the evidence. It biases the judgment." A fair acceptance of he too being a mortal like us despite his far reaching abilities - "Slips are common to all mortals, and the greatest is he who can recognise and repair them." 
       Never the one to get carried away by emotions, Holmes does respect the emotions of others. "I have never loved, Watson, but if I did and if the woman I loved had met such an end, I might act even as our lawless lion-hunter has done. Who knows?" Though in a handful of cases he lets go of the one who commits a crime when the circumstances make the crime justifiable, he is not the one to expressly voice his opinions on their acts. "It was my duty to bring the facts to light, and there I must leave it. As to the morality or decency of your conduct, it is not for me to express an opinion." 
         Holmes does seem arrogant. He is at times a bit over confident, but what difference does exist there when you are dead sure of it?
"I followed you."
"I saw no one."
"That is what you may expect to see when I follow you."

       I too like Watson "had no idea that such individuals exist outside of stories." But I think I may be wrong because I don't see anyone and how I wish I am being followed!!